Friday, April 14, 2006

Long day

today had being a long day for me..long time nvr try dun slp whole night..really cannot tahan...just close my eyes and i will start dreaming..and drool a bit too..ooppssss

Went to my best friend grandmother funeral. Actually to say the truth,i almost get emotional when i saw her going into the furnace..although I had only seen her once...but then the feeling of seeing somebody that I seen alive and still can talk..now going into the furnace..and going to be a everlasting memory..hmm..that is really a very sad scene...But i can say tat my friend is really strong..Good job...Or can i say job? but due to my poor english..i cannot think of another word leh..

Ok when I'm back home, I think i too long nvr try not to slp liao..really cannot take it..i almost miss my stop when in the feeder bus..reach home, bath, then ko lliao....It raining outside..so it is very cooling..and because it is a bit too cooling, I catch a cold..power la..think hoh...nowadays..mi ah very weak..like that also cold...lucky no fever..but then at tis time when i'm typing, I already ok le..because i slp until now..haha....the slp maybe start my immune system to work again..so my immune system can start to attack those stupid virus in me, and get rid of them making mi better..haha..dramatic hoh...haha...think i dun go joing acting wasted..haha...yes boasting about myself liao..Oh ya 1 thing i must say...

I sometime is actually very shy 1...so when i say i'm shy, i'm really feeing very pai seh at times hoh..then when i'm feeling pai seh, my voice like want to come out but ganna stuck so hoh..the volume is very soft la..And the funniest part is..Why the whole world cannot believe that I am really shy at times 1...haha...haizz..

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Is it right

At times, after making a certain decisions, there is always this thing behind me asking myself..Is it right? Will I regret? Haizz..when will this thing stop? I think this will end when i finally rest in the permanent bed...I had lived in regrets ever since that incident happen..I really scared le..I'm afraid that I will make it happen again...Therefore nw I dare not even think about it..cos that pain, that regrets will come back to haunt me again..when will they leave me..but then now even worse, i dun think about that, but then when I see again, it will automatically come back..I really feel very sian liao.. Everyday I will only focus on my program in my attachment place..throwing myself in..but then when I'm home, it comes..how..haizz..