Wednesday, August 10, 2005

hello it's mi again...today is going to fix on the stage light...hopefully it can be successful.. maybe it's because of the bump in, i just can't get to slp..being lying on the bed rolling around, but just can't slp...maybe even zhou gong also dun want mi...hahahahhahahahaaha....why is the air this few days so thin? I'm beginning to dislike night..night is so quiet..for this 2 months, there is something keep haunting me...they like to find mi when night time arrive...sucking all the air around mi..leaving the air thin for mi...Can i kill it? How to kill it? Where is it? Who is it? When can i kill it? i'm tired...Can the sun please come out faster...haizz

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

hihi...long time no post le..nowadays been busy with my production...I'm the light and sound main comm for the chinese society production named 重生道. This script is writen by my friend cum roomie Choy Cheng Zhen...He is the director also..but this production is the worst production I had ever seen... to date, there are already 3 main comm being sacked..the previous producer is really damn lousy in choosing main comm...he chose many main comm who dun have the sense of responsibility...To make a production, it is not something so easy...It really needs a lot of effort in making 1...but many of them are just waiting for things to happen..wat the f***...if you really want to be a fucking main comm, then fucking go and do wat you are suppose to do...dun always wait for producer to tell you...haizz...not that i want to scold, but the way they do things is really super fucking irresponsible...see until du lang...now there are new main comm coming in, they seems to be a better lot...at least they care to ask to clarify...with this new committee, i hope that our production will be a successful 1...

Today I was also being reminded of something tat happen to mi on the 20th of may 2005... it was the happiest day i had...but is also the beginning of the worst nightmare that happen to mi...maybe mine cannot even compared to theirs...mine is not even reconize by that person...although it is some time back le but this is really something that will be engrave deep inside mi...To say the truth, it still hurts at times...yes i know that many ppl will think that it is not something worth thinking, but it just come to mi silently especially when i'm alone...Y can't I just be like the rest of my friends? Y am I getting this? Is it that I'm really a loser? I told myself not to think it again..but how not to...Happiest become the worst nightmare..how irony...why why why why why why why!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun think le..going crazy le...go slp now...forget everything...focus on my production...tml got rehearsal...i'm the only 1 going..let my subcom enjoy their holiday ba...they deserve it...without them, i may not have gone to the stage now...DON"T THINK OF IT LE.... STUPID EUGENE!!!!